The Monetary and my Camer

My life has definitely taken a downturn, without a camera. My battery charger stopped working, and to replace it, would cost $80, the camera is 4 years old already. I really enjoy the camera, but my greedy, human self has a desire for something better, so I don't want to fork out any money for my old camera, and would rather wait till I can afford to buy a new one. Maybe affording isn't it, it's justifying it. Such an expensive gift for myself? That's a little selfish if you ask me. I would rather spend my hard earned money on someone else, it makes me feel less guilty. For some reason I have this guilt encrypted within myself, that spending money is bad. But oh how I dream about walking around with a giant strap around my neck, holding a beautiful camera lens in place. I would be able to photograph the beautiful sunsets, the rain, the nature, and my lovers freckles. Hmmm....I will try to manifest it. My mom and sister are coming to visit soon, they might feel sorry for me and get me a new camera. :)